Consequences

       After lighting himself on fire, Brent cannot handle the heat so he calls for help. Craig, his little brother, runs and dials 911. Ambulances and firemen finally arrive to aid Brent. Disturbed at this sight, Craig begins to cry and punch the wall. This might have something to do with the fact that Brent had told him about his suicidal plans, yet he did not care, probably thinking Brent was not capable of doing so.

       Brent doesn't seem to be too concerned about his own health but more about what is happening around him. It might be the adrenaline. He begins to have all these sidetrack thoughts and on the helicopter ride he even says: "I wonder if I'm going to the hospital near where my dad works. I could het a ride home with him later, oh, but he's in Arkansas or something. I wonder where he is."(page 19). This shows how he does not appear to understand the severity of the incident, yet.

       At the hospital, It takes him a while to gain full consciousness after waking up and falling asleep several times. He is under the effect of morphine, but still in great pain. Brent then catches sight of a rod in is side. Here we see that he experiences a massive change already: "If they unplug me, I'll die. I could die. Maybe I should ask them to unplug me. But I don't want to die anymore."(page 28). This is huge because we already know that he has wanted to die for quite a while know and this suddenly gives us hope. So what caused this realization? Was it the painful surgeries he has gone through? His brothers angry reaction? Or his mother's loving eyes when he is lying burnt on the kitchen floor? Whatever it was, I am glad he has had this epiphany.

Saturated (adj) page 32: soaked, impregnated, or imbued thoroughly; charged thoroughly or completely; brought to a state of saturation.